I’m halfway through rereading my book. I’m moving slowly because life has taken back over. Teaching, family, friends, my smelly dog. While the pace is frustrating, I’m trying to relax and just accept that it will all happen with time. This is my first book. The hurry is self-created.
A couple questions keep resurfacing, that I am very curious to know how others feel. The first, do you ever really love your writing? I want honest answers. It won’t sound arrogant to me to hear yes, or self-depricating to hear no, I’m just curious because I bounce all over the place, even within the same piece. While I love to write, I’m not sure I love what I write.
Some days I think it’s good, others I recognize I still have room to grow. Probably, it is some mixture of both good and need for growth, I get that. I just wonder whether writers commonly like their own work or continue to be critical of it even after they finish. Other than reading for flow and mistakes, I’m done with this book. I want to move on, I feel like I will do better with a fresh story.
To be clear, I’m by no means saying my story is bad or that I’m giving up on it, I just don’t know if it’s unusual to feel so mixed about my writing. I’m proud I did it, I think it’s readable, I like the plot, I just know I’ll also get better as I go. I’ve decided that if I can’t get an agent/publisher, which I know is highly possible, I want to e-publish just to share it, to put it out there, to help me grow.
So, here are my questions for writers:
How have you felt about your writing when you’ve finished? Confident, unsure, both?
What e-publishing communities have you enjoyed the most? I spent some time on smashwords and amazon today. Not sure what’s the best option, although as usual, I’m a couple steps ahead of myself because I still need to finish and at least submit it to some agents for the ritualistic rite of passage.