I know that I said that I was done with my book. That may have been an exaggeration, or better put, a partial truth. It’s more like I am done with the story. However, in my fiery haste to write 50,000 words in two months, I left a lot to be polished and expanded. Now, Tuesday nights are my night to write, my time alone, inside my head.
Tonight’s polishing stretched me to 53,000 words. That’s about 212 book pages… When all is said and done, I expect to have more like 60,000 words, or 240 pages, which is still on the shorter side for most published novels. I just wish that I had the time to sit and focus and get it done. Going back is fun, layers are emerging, new chapters are appearing between old ones. Spring break can’t come fast enough.
Despite my restlessness, my theme for life this week is, “It is good.” Anything that I find myself complaining about, I am following up with “It is good.” For example, as much as I cannot wait for spring break to write with more abandon, I know that it is good that somehow I’m still finding a way to write in spite of my busy life. It is good that I’m passionate enough about it to still make it happen. It is actually kind of magical when I think about it. My book has grown out of seemingly nowhere. It is good to have something that energizes me to come home after a long day at work. It is good.
I’m finding that this phrase applies to anything. It is good that teaching is challenging, hard, makes me want to scream, cry, kick, laugh. I am becoming tougher and more capable. It is good that plans change and schedules are not always kept. I am becoming more flexible and more appreciative of the people around me in the moment…
All things seemingly bad or challenging have their silver linings. They make us tougher, smarter, braver. They push us to grow. They force us to make changes and move forward. Granted, I know that not all challenging things seem this way, I just pray that I have the strength to make them all this way, to be conscious enough to find the good in everything, even the really hard things.
It is good. Life is good.
I leave you with my favorite songs of the evening: